I made Nik watch Chicago and Slumdog Millionaire last night, and he showed me Se7en. I freaking love Se7en, even though I guessed what was in the box at the end. And I stole a bunch of movies from his hard drive. So I have things to entertain myself with while I'm WRITHING IN PAIN.

Who the fuck had the idea to make periods so painful? WHO? I want them dead.
I told Nik I'm incapacitated in bed with cramps and I can hardly stand. He told me to let him know if I need him to come over with soup.

... I don't think he got the gist of what I meant by "cramps." LOL Though he's sweet to offer to come take care of me. Heeeee.

OH! Work stuff.
Creepy Mitch got fired for calling an old lady a cunt.
I'm not freaking kidding, he called an elderly worker a cunt and she told the superviser and Mitch got fired for it. I find it kind of hilarious. He was always saying outrageous things and making people uncomfortable, it's about time he got fired.

OMFG, my dad. Of course, my dad. If it were up to him, he'd baby me forever. He hates that I want independence and privacy. But I'll rant about that later. Lena and Jackson will be here soon, we're going to a restaurant for the double date with Nik. Hopefully that will de-stress me. I just wanted to point out that this writer's block couldn't have been more directed towards me. lol

OMG guys. So after work, I checked my phone and I had a message from the owner of this really neat restaurant/cafe in the student ghetto and he wanted an interview! I called him back and he said to drop by whenever so I went immediately lol I had to pull myself together to look like I didn't just get off of an 8 hour shift, but I think the interview went SUPER well. He said he had 3 girls who he hired but they're all going away on trips that they weren't going on when he hired them, so I was like yeah I don't have any summer excursions and I'm not in summer school, I just have another part time job. I really hope I get that one because he said he wants someone who can keep it in the fall.

Also, I got an email from the chief constable of Queen's Student Constables with a schedule of interviews. I have one next week Tuesday at 2PM, so wish me luck!! If I get both jobs, I can quit Tim's, which would mean no more strict dress code or uniform.

Man these possibilities are getting me excited!! Though I'd probably quit stu-cons after the summer because I feel like a job at Stooley's would get me more money during the year.

:'D

( it's wicked long )

I had the most ridiculous day.

Work started way early. Interesting points, girl baker figured out I'm ticklish. So she giggles and pokes my sides every now and again. Boy baker who hits on me asked me out for a beer. I declined, and will now be throwing hints at him that I am with someone.

I planned on having a nice quiet evening at home. Except for the bat.

There was a bat in my bedroom. I saw it flying around behind me when I was eating in my room and watching 30 Rock. I screamed and ran out, slamming the door behind me. I left my phone in the room, and I wasn't wearing pants. I couldn't leave the house to find Courtney so we could figure out what to do together, so I called the only phone number I have memorized - Jackson's (because his name is in his number).

He came over with his housemate, Jeremy, who I had to meet pantless because all my pants were in the room with the bat. I was wearing a blanket. In 30 degree weather, plus humidity. They went into my room wearing oven mits, weilding a bowl, a bag and a couple of brooms. Eventually the bat landed inside the hat of my Captain Jack statue, so Jeremy picked it up with the gloves and put it in a bag. They set it free outside.

I'm currently baking them cookies for being my fucking heroes.

I've hit the can't-sleep-can't-eat level of stress.
I'm going to be just a peach when I'm out with Nik for lunch.

Places at the mall are actually hiring now. Carleton Cards, please call me. That job seems to easy and you can actually look cute working there. I have no idea why the workers need to wear aprons but it's adorable. The girl there said that someone just quit yesterday so she said "you're good." And Ricki's is hiring for FULL - TIME. I'm gonna try and call them in a day or two to make sure the managers got my resumes.

I'm going to take a moment to say that I just ran out of my house because I was so sure someone was in it. I don't think there is. I ran to Court's but she wouldn't answer because she was sure I was the aggressive drunk guy who approached her on the street. She has no peep hole and I had no phone. Anyway, long story short. I'm home. I'm sure no one else is here.

I really just wanted to squeal about my success at the mall. Also they're hiring in dining at Best Western and at front desk and housekeeping at Peachtree Inn. I wouldn't mind any of those. I don't know why I don't want to work at Tim's so badly. I think it just feels like the "I can't do any better" job. It's most peoples' first jobs. It's the "don't take me seriously because I'm dressed like a dork" job.

I won't be spending anything that isn't on groceries, rent or bills. My dad called and I realized how much money I need by August, and I don't know where I'm going to get that money from. I am so stressed and sick of money problems, I could cry. I'm going to be working part time at Tim's, and that won't cut it.

I'm gonna go talk to some food about my money problems.

I'm up early and hungry and tired.
But it's because I have to go to work.
So it's good.

Half my clothes are in the dryer. Can you believe it took me 3 days to do 2 loads of laundry? I need one day where I can stay home and do household errands. lol

I probably don't have time to put my laundry away after it's been dried so it's gonna be wrinkled. lol

Oh.
Void cheque.
I love that I'm getting paid for orientation. I hear I just sit and watch videos.

I got the call from my parents. The one I hate. The "you're spending too much" call. My mom was freaking because I used my debit at the Beer Store. I bought a 12 case for Court and she paid me back in full plus tip, which I deposited into my bank account today. They ask about Giant Tiger. I'm going to lie through my teeth, I don't fucking care. They are my parents but there is a LIMIT on how much control they can have over me. I'm turning 20 in 2 and a half weeks.

Courtney thinks I should get a secret bank account, but I don't like the idea of that. I'll figure it out.

I accompanied Court to a work BBQ today. I didn't drink, I was the only one. I'm not really gonna go over all of it. It basically turned into a lot of drinking. So I was downing a lot of coke to participate in the drinking games. I like her co-workers, though, they're super friendly.

Anyway... I got hired at Tim's this morning, and tomorrow is orientation. I want to talk to someone to de-stress about the parental units, but Jim and Kim aren't around. I hate hate hate money problems.

I didn't get the job at Black's. I want to curl up in a little ball and give up.
Not going to, though. I want to be hopeful for the Marine Museum but I think it's clear now that I'm not cut out for real jobs.

I went freaking everywhere today. I'm not done either. I just came home to warm up (it's 9 degrees in June!!) and get more resumes. I applied at The Beer Store, and the guy waiting for his Carling looked at me and said "wow. just wow." I kind of smiled and he said "that's a compliment." lol I said thanks and wondered if I would get old guys like that often if I worked there.

Why is this one called rabbit rabbit?
If I had one wish, it'd be to find good jobs so I can stay in Kingston.
I have been ultimatum'd. If I don't find something SOON, then my parents are driving up to bring me home. I'm going on the hunt today, widening parameters to fast food. First stop is Tim Hortons. I'm also applying for a position at the Marine Museum of the Great Lakes. I hope I get that one, it pays $10.50/hr.

It's also a miserable day for job hunting. It's cold and wet. Well, it's going to be wet.

Don't laugh.
I might start drinking coffee from a straw.

Let me explain. lol
I do not want coffee stains, and I do not want to keep using Crest White Strips. I can't afford to keep buying them, and prolonged use leads to super sensetive teeth (I know because Court does it lol). I can't brush my teeth immediately after every cup I drink because drinking coffee softens the enamel on your teeth and brushing while they're soft damages it (apparently, I heard about it, then looked it up). So what are my options without quitting coffee?

Straw.
Don't laugh.
It'll work.

I have an interview for a job that I don't really want. I only took the interview because I haven't had any luck elsewhere, and I'm not going to be picky. It's a serving position at a restaurant - probably the worst-managed restaurant ever (but the food is good).

If I get this job, I'm only gonna keep it until I find 2 other jobs, then quit. Apparently you don't make a whole lot of money there anyway because the tips are shared and there's a 20% tipout to the kitchen (I hear the norm is like 4% or something).

I'm just writing to fill time before I have to leave. It's raining out, I hardly wanted to get out of bed, let alone go outside.

So, it started in Trinidad. I wasn't born in this city, but I'm pretty sure my first home was in Santa Flora. It was a house that my grandfather (on my mom's side) built, so I hear. It was a store on the bottom floor, and the family lived upstairs.

From there we went to Mumbai, India. My dad's family lived there. It was a different place than where my family lives now. It was smaller, my dad grew up there. He showed me when we went to India when I was 10. It's where I learned to talk or walk. Or both.

Then we hit the US. We lived in New Jersey. I forget the city name, but we still have family living there. I don't remember a whole lot from there. We have photos of me in a little pink jacket playing in the snow.

We may have lived in New York City for a while. I don't remember and the answer always changes. LOL

From there we went to Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. Neal started school there. I don't remember much from here either. Mike isn't too far from Ft. Lauderdale, apparently.

Then we DROVE from Ft. Lauderdale to Corona, California. This is where I started growing up. It's about a half hour away from Anaheim, and for those who don't know where that is, think Disney Land. This is where I started going to school, making friends. We had family in Rialto and Huntington Beach who we saw every weekend. I miss having family so close by. I miss some of my friends, but I still talk to Jantzen quite often. I don't know the kind of person I would be if I had stayed there. I'd be much less moral with the influence of my cousin. I wouldn't be at all the same person I am now, so for that, I am glad we left.

In 1999, we moved to Toronto unexpectedly. lol We drove, it was tedious. I was 10 and I hated living here right up until about high school. Oh, by the way, we didn't stay in Toronto too long. We were staying with my mom's uncle who lived downtown and my mom thought it was too crowded and busy so we moved to Mississauga which was just getting built up. Kids at school were jerks. HUGE jerks. Everyone hated me because I was from the US. I faced more racism in school in Mississauga than I have in California. I wonder at what age kids learn to be racist.

It wasn't until high school when I met the people who would become my best friends that I came to love where I was living. Gina, Noemi, Ashley, Mike and Mark (later on, Kim) made my LIFE. But nothing good ever lasts. We moved out of Mississauga to my current city. Much smaller, known for having snobby rich residents. We're not at all rich, we just found a small pocket of cheap town houses. I finished high school there, and I retrospectively hated it. I thought it was okay at the time, but I realized I didn't have very much fun at all. I never really found my niche there. I'd say just because of high school BS, and having to be torn away from my friends, I like the current city the least. My mom said I was depressed for a few months. I didn't notice, but I really was. But if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have made the grades for Queen's. In Mississauga, I had too much fun at school. When I moved and didn't have any friends, I just did school work on my lunch hour and all night when I was home.

From there, I went to Kingston on my own for school. I stayed in a residence in first year, then we moved into this rented house hopefully for the rest of university. It does feel like home, I quite like it. I love the independence. I love having a room big enough to accomodate all my stuff. I feel like I've outgrown my room at home.

When they ask, I tell people I'm "from" Mississauga, just because that's where I met my best friends and it's where I was shaped more into who I am now. It's where I learned to be more comfortable in my own skin.

I think I gained more weight than I thought. I had the toughest time getting into my skinny jeans today than I think I ever have. Either that or I just never noticed that I have to jump and squirm to get into them.

It's a good thing I'm running again. We had kind of a break while Courtney was going through some stuff. While I'm unemployed I might hit the gym during the day as well.

Speaking of employment, though, I got a call from Black's Photography. They want an interview tomorrow. Wish me luck, guys.

And by "good morning," I obviously mean "good afternoon." I fucked up my sleep schedule. I could have slept so much longer.

Anyway... I stole this quiz from memoryofrae.

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"All my life," Bob cries. "Why I do anything, I don't know." (Fight Club)

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
the end of the couch

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Futurama movie, "Bender's Game"

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
1:30

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
1:41

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Coffee hissing as it brews in the kitchen

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Coming home from Courtney's before getting mad sick all yesterday morning

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
my updates on deviantART

9. What are you wearing?
a t-shirt that says "hot." on it with the "o" being the globe, and black girly boxers

10. Did you dream last night?
I dreamt I got really pissed at my dad for treating me like a child and then we came home to the neighbourhood that was being tormented by 3 witches and a lion.

11. When did you last laugh?
oh I don't remember. Probably while watching Futurama last night.

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
They're mostly bare, except for a note that says "Please return phone to charger after you use it!", a picture of Virginia Walker (a bio professor for the university), and a picture of Hugh Hefner. Don't ask.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Probably, but I don't remember. I see weird shit all the time.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
I liked the first couple of questions but now it's getting boring.

15. What is the last film you saw?
in theaters, it was X-Men Origins, but I watched the Futurama movie last night. You all probably know that by now.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I'd probably pay for school, as lame as that is. But I'll have money left over, so I'll buy myself some pretty things (I love lingerie shopping, not gonna lie)

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
I don't like my thighs.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
No penalties for downloading.

19. Do you like to dance?
I'd have to be in the mood, and only with a certain group of people. The kind that don't judge. Haha.

20. George Bush:

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Leela. NOT after the Futurama character (that's just a perk of the name). It's actually my mom's nickname, despite her name being Tara. Don't ask me, the nicknames in her family don't make sense.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I don't know yet! I have a lot of names picked out. I like James and Jack. I also like Miles and Dallas, but I think it'd be weird to name children after my characters.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Sure, for a while. I want to teach English in foreign countries. I'm thinking Venezuela, Singapore, India, Brazil...

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"You're a hindu! Get back down there, dressed as a crab." *reincarnates*

25. Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal
Kim, Robynie, Pocky, Ariel, Holly, Ji

I haven't had food poisoning before and I never want it again.
I thought I was just sick because I drank last night but I only had 3 coolers and was sober by the time I went to bed. I stayed over at Courtney's because it was late. Somehow I couldn't breathe through my nose anymore so I didn't sleep all that well. It was raining so we didn't run. I went home and tried to sleep but I couldn't because I couldn't breathe. I started throwing up at 7:30.

NOBODY should throw up at 7:30. Too fucking early! I didn't stop until about noon, and somewhere along the way my nose unclogged so I could actually get to sleep. I had texted Jackson after the fifth time I threw up and told him I think I have food poisoning. He said he'd pick up some medicine and ginger ale after work and bring them over. I told him to let himself into the house (he has keys) in case I'm sleeping.

I felt way better by the time he got here. The ginger ale and gatorade he bought helped a lot. I knew I was dehydrated but drinking water gave me this feeling of "you're gonna get sick soon" so I just didn't drink any because the only thing I want right now is to never throw up again. lol

So now my stomach is settled except I feel weak and hungry.

I had a dream that I woke up at 9PM and missed my interview. :( I'm gonna start waking up like... in the morning now.

I don't have a good feeling about the day. The weather is gloomy. I feel gloomy. I hope it doesn't affect the interview. lol I want to nail it. Maybe happy music. And HIMYM. Perhaps 30 Rock as well. Just get me a bit more up-beat before going into Garage.

At least I have an outfit in mind for the interview that is both a put-together look as well as being ALL Garage clothes.